I woke up this morning using that will to will myself out of bed. Believe me there are days it's hard to crawl out of that bed. The past few weeks have been so much harder than normal plus with the high dose of steroid therapy I'm tossing and turning all night long so morning comes and I'm still exhausted. As I laid there today I inhaled my albuterol because my wheezing and cough are much worse in the morning. I use the inhaler and wait for the relief and then pull the covers back and get myself in gear. Laying there waiting I was thinking about my toes and the horrendous pain I have been dealing with for so many months. The pain, burning fire, and other symptoms are getting out of control and I know I am going to hit that breaking point where I'm going to have to call my doctor for this issue but hey why call when you can put it off for months and suffer in shear agony? The life of a chronically ill person, why deal with something today when you can wait six more months? All of the mind games going back and forth about when to call about an issue is almost as exhausting as the physical symptoms that rear in your ugly head. This got me thinking about McDonalds. No not about burgers and fries but what about a drive thru diagnosis? Jump in your car drive to the drive thru look at the board and place your order, "Hello doc today I'm still dealing with my wheezing and coughing but I need to add a side of burning feet and pain." The person at the other end of the speaker tells me the total of my purchase and tells me to drive to the next window. Pull up to the window give her my insurance card, kerching, heres your receipt please pull up to the next window for your diagnosis. Next window doctor is there orders tests, gives you your scripts, and tell you they will contact you with the actual diagnosis. I love this concept especially since I try to avoid germs as much as possible, yes being chronically ill germs are always on your mind because with a compromised immune system you have to be extremely careful. I might be onto something here. Humm. Who knows what the future holds with medical care. I know you can now have a virtual doctors appointment if needed and that sort of blows my mind but it also intrigues me to some degree. In all honesty I don't know what the answer is to all this chronic illness garbage but I do know it isn't very much fun at all. My head wants to make it all easier but trythfully I'd really like to make it all go away. For now I'll dream about stupid sceneries that in some odd way help me to try to make sense of all this insanity that the rest of the world could possibly never understand. Fight on my fellow chronics!