I woke up alone today as I do on most days of the week. Rich is out back hunting for the last time here on this land. It is such a bitter sweet week for us here. Last days to hunt. Sitting in a empty house. Looking forward to our delayed Christmas celebration with the kids on Monday night. All lasts for not just Rich and I but for the kids and grand kids. I had to laugh and I keep laughing out loud at Vinnie when he said to me the other night, "It's sad leaving here I have a lot of good memories in this place." Too cute since he has only been around a few years. It warmed my heart to hear him say that but the more and more I have thought about it the past few days and brought it up to Rich more than once it gave me the chills. After all that is all a mother wants for her children and their families is to feel welcomed and loved and that we are glad they are a part of our family unit. I keep telling them when they say they are sad or whatever else they say about leaving here that it will be the same when we move just in another place but deep in my heart I know that isn't true. Yes, the love will be the same but life will still change. You go with the flow and if you think about it nothing ever stays the same in relationships, jobs or life you just make the best of what you have wherever you are at at any given time.
I sit here on my birthday wondering who in the world writes a blog entry on their birthday but then I thought to myself, what a better day to write a blog then on your birthday? Birthdays are perfect for reflection on all the years gone by. All the good times you have been blessed to experience. When I was thinking of the past before I started the blog I also thought about all the hell I have been through with my health over the past fifty one years and I thought to myself damn you are one tough bitch. Why can't I embrace that? I never play the victim or allow my disease to define me, at least in my head I don't. Although there are the many days it does control what I am able to do or not do. It's all good. I fight through each and every health hurdle and I win every time. This past week has been hard with so many health issues. Two out of three have had good outcomes so one hurdle to jump on Monday and I am home free. Reminds me to remember we are not in control of anything that happens so why get all worked up. Okay I lied I do get worked up not because of this or that issue but because of having to see another doctor or have another test. Yes those are the things that get me worked up. Even if they told me I had something that was really bad I think I would be okay with it and ready to fight it but seeing more and more specialists and the tests get me worked up more than the actual issue at hand. It's all good though because I am still here. Still living a good life and blessed with some amazing people who lift me up every time I fall down. Birthdays are good! Aging isn't all that bad if you subtract your body out of the equation. Really.
So here's to another year. Bring it on 2014!
God Bless!
Dianne
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