Remember that saying? Take it all with or as a grain of salt. I use to think old people were crazy when they would say that, but now that I am older I can identify with that phrase in so many ways. I honestly have no idea what I am going to write here but I was pulled here for some reason. I think mostly because since I have started our new bible study I find myself even more confused then I was before I started it. I don't understand much, as I never really have, but since I have some definitive subjects to study I can't help myself but ask more whys and say that so much of this stuff doesn't make sense. I truly believe in God, it has nothing to do with my faith at all, it is just that when I read the bible, and answer the questions to the study it seems like so many things I read contradict one another. I read you shouldn't do this or you shouldn't do that and then I read the old testament and I become confused as the people back then were doing all of these things and sometimes God told them to do the very things we are not to do. Unless I am reading it totally out of the context. Now I am doing research on the old and the new covenant and I am nervous about even starting to read it. It makes me cry even more and not understand even more when I dig into the bible. I thought it was suppose to be the other way around. I liked it better when all I had was my faith and would encourage myself with quotes and some positive bibel verses. Or I would read the Footprints. Those are the things that inspire me to live and rely on my faith the most.
I had to run to the store today and when I was coming home from the trip I was thinking of how the world has it all messed up with the way we think and live. I heard something the other day and when the person said it my mouth opened in disbelief. The person was saying how someone she knows has a ton of shoes, Ill say shoes even though it was a different item, she said the number it was 70. My brain couldn't even process it. Are you kidding me? I cannot even understand what is wrong with our world to think we would need 70 of some meaningless item that mostly sits in our closet. Even before I became ill I never had a love for things or shopping or stuff for that matter. I never understood how people could shop and store up all this stuff they more than likely never use and it just sits there and collects dust. How come people aren't using the extra money they have to help others who need it. A friend in need? Instead of spend, spend, spend. Are people really actually trying to buy a happiness that is never found and that is why they keep buying and spending?
After this thought it lead me to the thought of how people abandon one another. It amazes me how when the sun is shining and things are good everyone is around you, but as soon as the lights dim and things aren't so good people run. What is that all about? Many times the people who run are the ones who are preaching the goodness of God to others but when it comes to actually being Jesus to someone they can't do it. Words are words. Love in action is much more of a sacrifice to another person. If we are Jesus in skin why are we not walking instead of talking. I can write this because I have lived it. I have a very few select friends, besides my immediate family, who are still Jesus in skin to me. The ones who really care. I know who they are. I cherish them. They encourage me to want to be that to others who struggle, because when you are in a storm that goes on and on and on it can be a very lonely, scary, and at times a very sad place. Just knowing someone cares can make a day better. Of course you can't understand this until you go through something and need the love and care from others.
I guess this post is my way of wanting to shake the world and shout, "WAKE UP!" Life is short. Love people not things. Take a minute or two to care about someone else. Don't take it with a grain of salt. The next time you want to buy yet another pair of shoes that you don't need, maybe send the money to someone who can use it. Or send someone a message and tell them you care about them. Or just be kind to a stranger when you are out in the world. Stop and smile at a child in the store. Help an older person who looks like they are struggling, or a younger one who may be slumped over their shopping cart. Your one kindness, that you think is no big deal, may encourage the next person to do the same for another person. Don't take this life with a grain of salt. It will all end so while you are here leave a piece of yourself with someone so that when you are gone you will linger in their heart forever and they in yours!